The weather has changed. Yesterday and today were very warm, bordering on hot. Late this afternoon the clouds began to roll in … the air became cooler. Tonight it has been raining and a cold wind is blowing. The forecast calls for near-winter temps tomorrow night, somewhere in the 30’s. It makes me feel curiously comfortable. It’s almost like the weather has entered my element. As if nature has taken it upon herself to manifest the feelings inside of me …. feelings I can’t seem to articulate. Tomorrow is a big day.

I love my sister with all my heart, and I know the pain she is in for. It hurts my heart to think of her having to experience that. But I have to remain as strong as I can — at least on the outside where everyone can see. On the inside, the tears rain down in synchronicity with the rain falling from the sky; on the inside, the dread clouds my spirit, like the gray clouds obscuring the sky. Strangely, it comforts me. It just seems …… fitting.