So .... It's Monday
Hi. Umm ....
I really don't know what to say. I mean, I have TONS I'd like to say, but it's stuff I don't NEED to say. Not here, anyway.
I'm dreading Mother's Day.
My sister and I are going to go look at headstones tomorrow. We're going to try to pick out the prettiest, most Mom-like one we can find. How weird is that? Hoping the one thing you never wanted to have to pick out will be the best one you can pick out.
The weather is turning hot again. Why did it turn so cold and wet on the day of Mom's service? It was like ... in the 80's on Wednesday, then 40 on Thursday. I hated that it happened that way. She hated cold.
I'm so hungry and I know I should eat. Nothing sounds good to me.
My mother left little sticky-notes on all of her paperwork with instructions for us so we'd know what to do with it. How thoughtful was that? She also had everything set up so that it would transfer upon her death in the easiest way possible. She always took such phenomenally good care of us. She still is.
Did I mention that I'm dreading Mother's Day?
I guess this isn't such a good day, and maybe I shouldn't be writing stuff. So I'll go. For now. You're all the absolute best, and I love each and every one of you!
xoxoxoxo
Thoughts from others
Your writing will help you through this, and we will all be here to listen. ((hugs))
I like looking at your photos of your mom, it is such a beautiful way to remember her and help those of us who didn't know her come to know her.
(btw, my mother is doing the same thing with all her papers, bugs me in a way but I know she means well, just as your mom did.)
Posted by: Diane | May 3, 2004 1:40 PM
Posted by: Beverly | May 3, 2004 1:44 PM
Posted by: Marsha | May 3, 2004 2:10 PM
Be sure to eat something, even if it doesn't taste like anything. You need lots of strength to get to tomorrow.
My very best,
Carol
Posted by: cassie-b | May 3, 2004 2:45 PM
And Leigh...Don't forget to eat some nutritious. Like Carol said...you need lots of strength to get to tomorrow.
I bet the headstone is just perfect!! I can see a beautiful flower somewhere near the top.
Posted by: Debbie | May 3, 2004 6:19 PM
Remember back when you were young, your first doll, your first tea set, that frilly dress. And, when you put up the dollies and had your first date, sharing every little detail with Momma.
Then came your wedding day and Momma helped you with all the things that Mommas do to make their little girls day special. She was there for the birth of your children, comforting you when those pains of labor & love seemed to be overwhelming.
Your Momma is looking down on you right now and smiling so big... she knows you're strong and you're able to go on.
So my dear friend... When you see a mountain in front of you, keep climbing, don't give up. Reaching the top may be a struggle, you may slip back wards a few times... but keep thinking about what you'll see on the other side of that mountain, knowing in your heart that your Momma was there the whole time... cheering you on, you'll make it.
Big hugs to you Leigh, I know it will hurt for a long time... but we're all here for you. ((hugs)) xoxooxox
Posted by: CJ | May 3, 2004 9:52 PM
*HUGS*
Posted by: Kirsi | May 4, 2004 12:27 AM
She wouldn't want you hurting. Celebrate who she was, and how much like her you already are. She's taught you so much, and you have the honor of being able to pass those lessons on to your own children and grandchildren.
Posted by: Patrick | May 4, 2004 8:02 AM
You're a special mom, too; maybe there will be a nice surprise in store for you.
Posted by: Leslie | May 4, 2004 9:42 AM
Posted by: Mary Lou | May 4, 2004 1:10 PM
Posted by: Michelle | May 4, 2004 2:25 PM
lvoe you always
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Posted by: madpoet | May 4, 2004 6:01 PM
Posted by: Leslie | May 4, 2004 8:34 PM
Bev, have you noticed what I've noticed? Your name is the same as my mom's; your Kelly's name is spelled exactly like my sister Kelly; I think it's pretty obvious we were meant to meet, don't you? :) Love you!
In fact, I love you all! :)
Posted by: Leigh | May 4, 2004 9:11 PM
Posted by: Debbie | May 5, 2004 6:04 PM
Posted by: Carrie | May 5, 2004 10:20 PM