So .... It's Monday

Hi. Umm ....

I really don't know what to say. I mean, I have TONS I'd like to say, but it's stuff I don't NEED to say. Not here, anyway.

I'm dreading Mother's Day.

My sister and I are going to go look at headstones tomorrow. We're going to try to pick out the prettiest, most Mom-like one we can find. How weird is that? Hoping the one thing you never wanted to have to pick out will be the best one you can pick out.

The weather is turning hot again. Why did it turn so cold and wet on the day of Mom's service? It was like ... in the 80's on Wednesday, then 40 on Thursday. I hated that it happened that way. She hated cold.

I'm so hungry and I know I should eat. Nothing sounds good to me.

My mother left little sticky-notes on all of her paperwork with instructions for us so we'd know what to do with it. How thoughtful was that? She also had everything set up so that it would transfer upon her death in the easiest way possible. She always took such phenomenally good care of us. She still is.

Did I mention that I'm dreading Mother's Day?

I guess this isn't such a good day, and maybe I shouldn't be writing stuff. So I'll go. For now. You're all the absolute best, and I love each and every one of you!

xoxoxoxo

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Leigh,
Your writing will help you through this, and we will all be here to listen. ((hugs))
I like looking at your photos of your mom, it is such a beautiful way to remember her and help those of us who didn't know her come to know her.
(btw, my mother is doing the same thing with all her papers, bugs me in a way but I know she means well, just as your mom did.)

It always helps me to talk about Kelly... I think it would help you to vent, rant, *itch and complain about it. Here is a good place for you to do just that. Love you, Leigh... remember that.

I really don't have any words to make things better, but please know that I'm thinking of you. (((Hugs)))

Sometimes I think all these errands you have to do are just a way to keep you busy. There's so much to do.

Be sure to eat something, even if it doesn't taste like anything. You need lots of strength to get to tomorrow.

My very best,
Carol

((((Leigh)))) You're in my thoughts as Mother's Day draws near, sweet friend. Yes, the first Mother's Day without your mom will be hard. But, as difficult as it may be...do try to smile through the tears. Your mom will be watching. *wink* All my love, strength and friendship will be with you all week, and my heart will be reaching out on Sunday offering you comfort.

And Leigh...Don't forget to eat some nutritious. Like Carol said...you need lots of strength to get to tomorrow.

I bet the headstone is just perfect!! I can see a beautiful flower somewhere near the top.

As time passes, the pain inside will begin to heal. It will take time before your heart feels less sorrow & grief... and even then you will always have the memories of your Momma.

Remember back when you were young, your first doll, your first tea set, that frilly dress. And, when you put up the dollies and had your first date, sharing every little detail with Momma.

Then came your wedding day and Momma helped you with all the things that Mommas do to make their little girls day special. She was there for the birth of your children, comforting you when those pains of labor & love seemed to be overwhelming.

Your Momma is looking down on you right now and smiling so big... she knows you're strong and you're able to go on.

So my dear friend... When you see a mountain in front of you, keep climbing, don't give up. Reaching the top may be a struggle, you may slip back wards a few times... but keep thinking about what you'll see on the other side of that mountain, knowing in your heart that your Momma was there the whole time... cheering you on, you'll make it.

Big hugs to you Leigh, I know it will hurt for a long time... but we're all here for you. ((hugs)) xoxooxox

Thinking of you! Take care of yourself!
*HUGS*

Take some time to grieve this mother's day. Take a trip to the top of Flagstaff mountain, bring some canvas and some pastels, and just sketch a picture of your mom. She will be with you, and she will help guide your hand, when you need help.

She wouldn't want you hurting. Celebrate who she was, and how much like her you already are. She's taught you so much, and you have the honor of being able to pass those lessons on to your own children and grandchildren.

Seeing each one of those little post-it notes must have felt like a tiny hug from her. Mother's Day will be another day of tears and memories, probably even more so. Cry all you need to, Leigh, and have some sweet moments remembering all the Mother's Days in the past that you have spent with her.

You're a special mom, too; maybe there will be a nice surprise in store for you.

Take time to grieve for your Mom on Sunday, But also take time for your Daughter in Law!! and YOURSELF!!! Just think, Next Mothers' Day you will be a GRANDMOTHER!!! Your Mom would want you to look forward not backwards!!! Look forward with anticipation!! and peek over your shoulder and wink at your Mom.

The day will come where you will remember your mum with gladness instead of sadness. Why not buy a bunch of beautiful helium filled balloons and tie little "love notes" on the strings from the whole family to your mum and let them go on Sunday. Or go out a buy yourself a little indoor plant like an African Violet in memory of your mother for Mothers Day and each Mothers Day from here on out, you can always have it on the table when your own kids are spoiling you.

youa re lvoed and thought of by so many leigh... have you thought of planting a rose bush (or her favorite flower/plant) or tree etc, in your yard as a reminder of her LIFE?:) jsut an idea.


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Oh, I love Michelle's ideas!

Yes, Leslie, I love what Michelle said, too; but then again, I LOVE what ALL of you have said! I've never seen such caring, understanding people before in my life. To think that you all take time out of your day to come here to try and make me feel better .... well, it's incredible, simple as that! I can't even begin to say what it has meant to me. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! ((((((((((group hug)))))))))))

Bev, have you noticed what I've noticed? Your name is the same as my mom's; your Kelly's name is spelled exactly like my sister Kelly; I think it's pretty obvious we were meant to meet, don't you? :) Love you!

In fact, I love you all! :)

What a wonderful idea, Patrick. :)) Leigh's canvas would leave such beauty. Leigh, if you ever do sketch your mother's beautiful face we'd love to see. ;)

Can I just say again (if I didn't earlier) how much I love the tribute to your mom on the top of the page? {{hugs}}

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