My Mama

Beverly Louise Reinhardt Humphries
Born January 13, 1929
Died April 24, 2004

Heaven gained another angel last night -- my mother. She passed on at around 7:30pm, after a day of extremely labored breathing. My sisters and I were with her all day long, making sure she was comfortable, and letting her know that it was okay to go.

It is an honor to be with someone when they take their last breath. Interestingly, though, Mom waited until I stepped out to go home for about an hour before she took her last breath. It was almost as if she sensed that I was the one having the hardest time letting go, so she waited until I was gone before dying so I wouldn't have to be there when it happened. That's just like my Mom -- always so thoughtful. My sister called me on my cell and I turned right around and went back. I hadn't made it that far from the nursing home, so it didn't take me long.

Right now I am numb. The full force of what has happened has yet to hit me. I know I will never see my Mama's sweet, beautiful face again with my eyes, but I will see it forever with my heart. I concentrate on remembering that she has finally been released from a body wracked with pain, and is probably enjoying a wonderful family reunion up in heaven. :) I had a dream about her Friday night, where she came to see me and was walking with vim and vigor, her hair was all done up pretty like it used to always be, and she was drinking a Pepsi. I told her about the dream today and apologized for dreaming that she was drinking Pepsi -- she prefers Coke. ;) Anyway, that dream really helped to comfort me and to remind me that once she left her body, she would be able to live for all eternity with no pain, sickness or heartache. I am happy for her. I am sad for me, my sisters and our families. I miss her so badly already that my chest and stomach ache. I have to learn how to live my life without my mother in it. It will be the most difficult thing I have ever had to do.

God bless you, Mama. Thank you for all that you did, gave and were. You are my forever hero and champion!

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I'm so sorry for your loss. Happy for Mom, though... she'll never hurt again. Remember the good times. Love you, Leigh... never forget that.

I'm so sorry for your loss :(
Keeping you in my thoughts as always. *HUGS*

Oh my beautiful friend, I am so sorry to read your news. I am feeling your sadness right now and would love to be there to reach out and comfort you in person. You are in my thoughts Sweetie and I pray for you to have the strength to handle your loss. Please send my condolences to your family. I am sending you all love and hugs.

It's hard to lose someone you care so much about. You have my deepest sympathies.

And I wish you strength for the days to come.


Carol

OH Leigh I am sooooo sorry!!! There is nothing worse than losing a parent. It is an emotion you just cant put words to. The hole in your heart never goes away, but it does mend.

Your mother really wanted to go long ago, but as I said a month or so back, She wouldnt until you gave her permission to leave. Something as simple as saying it's ok to go, Mom. We understand, just lifts the weight off of them and allows them to be free.

Now comes the really hard part...knowing that you cant ever ask her another question, or call her to settle a dispute between you and your sister.

My heart goes out to you and your family. Grieve, but not too long, she wouldnt want that. She would want you to be excited about your GRANDSON!!!

(Hugs)

Much love and many many hugs for you and your family leigh, as always you are in my thoughts!

(((hugs)))
I wish I were I closer to you to give a real one, I mean that with all my heart. I know this past few months have been so hard for all of you, I have thought you all so often.

Oh Leigh, I''m so very sorry to hear of the loss of your momma, but you do know that heaven has certainly gained another angel, don't you? I wish I could be there in person to hug you, hold you and share my shoulder, to let your tears fall.

I feel your pain so many miles away, and extend my deepest sympathy and if there is ANYTHING I can do Leigh, please don't hesitate to ask. You know how to reach me... I've had my share of pain & sorrow, but I still have lots of shoulder left and it's here if you need to vent, cry, scream or just lay your head upon it and sigh.

Remember the good times, the happy times... and know that your momma is at peace now and God needed her help, the heavens needed another angel or he wouldn't have taken her away.

Once again, my sincere sympathy to you & your family... May God hold y'all in his love & care during this trying time.

Love you Leigh ((gentle hugs))

Oh Leigh, I''m so very sorry to hear of the loss of your momma, but you do know that heaven has certainly gained another angel, don't you? I wish I could be there in person to hug you, hold you and share my shoulder, to let your tears fall.

I feel your pain so many miles away, and extend my deepest sympathy and if there is ANYTHING I can do Leigh, please don't hesitate to ask. You know how to reach me... I've had my share of pain & sorrow, but I still have lots of shoulder left and it's here if you need to vent, cry, scream or just lay your head upon it and sigh.

Remember the good times, the happy times... and know that your momma is at peace now and God needed her help, the heavens needed another angel or he wouldn't have taken her away.

Once again, my sincere sympathy to you & your family... May God hold y'all in his love & care during this trying time.

Love you Leigh ((gentle hugs))

Leigh,
My heart is reaching out for you here. Your mom lives on in your heart and will continue to live on in your children's hearts. Try to take care of yourself these next few weeks, as your mom would not want you to hurt for very long. Celebrate what she meant to you and the person she helped shape you into.

Talk to any of us as you need, and we are all keeping you in our thoughts.

Oh Leigh I am so so sorry.... My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. This post really touched me... reading about your mom. That is such a beautiful photo of her....

You're in my thoughts and prayers, Leigh. *hugs*

*Tears* Oh, my dear, dear friend...I am so sorry. (((((comforting hugs)))))) But, like you said, your mama can now live for all eternity without pain and suffering. The Heavens were blessed the day beautiful Beverly Louise came to stay. ;)

Dear Leigh, Debbie, Kelly and families...may those treasure memories help ease your sorrow and light your way. Our love and thoughts are with you all at this sad time. Debbie & family (((((hugs))))))
Leigh, I'm holding your hand in spirit.
For your mama.

My dear, sweet friend,

Such a beautiful lady your mother was and surely is this day in heaven. I am so very, very sorry to hear your sad news. I can't even find the words, Leigh. My heart is so heavy for your loss.

This was a beautiful tribute to her -- such loving words from a beautiful soul. Your Mother must've been so proud of you and loved you with all her heart. How lucky you both were to have had each other.

I wish more than anything I could give you a hug right now.

(((((hugs)))))
What a beautiful lady, and look at those heavenly locks!! Was her hair naturally curly like that?
You wrote such a lovely post for her. Nothing can ever prepare you for the emptiness you now feel. It will get better, but you will always feel the loss. I feel my parents with me alot!! I talk to them and feel their humor too. Some day you will be reunited!!
I am sorry for your loss.

Leigh,

Just want to say I am sorry and if you need someone to talk to I am here.
Take care of yourself

Love,
Martie

Sorry to hear of your loss, Leigh, and I know that nothing I say will diminish your sense of loss or pain. Just look at the circle of friends gathering around you and take solace in that. Hang in there, time really does heal the wounds that are so raw right now.

It may be bittersweet for you, but right now, I am visiting a member who is wishing to pass and can't because of the medications he's being given by the doctor. The doctor is not ready to call in hospice and the pain he might go through if refusing all meds could be staggering. It sounds as if your mother's pain was rather short term. Such a blessing if I'm right and it's all over if I'm wrong. With all our love, Dennis and Kim

I heard about your loss from CJ. I am so sorry that your mother is gone from your side, but I am glad to hear that your dream confirms she is with you in spirit. God bless you and your family. Thank you for sharing with us the beauty of your mother.

I'm so very sorry to hear of your mother's passing. What a beautiful lady she was. My heart goes out to you and your family. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. (((Hugs)))

Ah, Leigh... What a wonderful memorial you've created here!



Condolences from our house to yours.

I'm very sorry, Leigh. She was a beautiful lady and I know she'll be missed. One day at a time, my friend.

Leigh, I am so sorry for your pain. I know how hard it is. Take it one moment at a time. I send my love, support and hugs. Perhaps it will be a comfort when you think that Heaven's newest (and very beautiful) angel will be guiding you from a very powerful place.

(((hugs)))

Dear Leigh... your relationship with your mom will never end, just change... embrace every single precious moment... since that's all there ever is anyway.

Leigh... we love you...its like we all you...you know how it feels to be alone...something some of us cant do...best of wishes...

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