I'm on a primitive life raft, alone. Before me is a whirlpool of chaos, mood and emotion, growing more ominous with every passing minute. I have only my hands with which to paddle desperately, trying with all my might to stay within a safe distance from its pull. I lose ground with every stroke. Desire keeps me paddling; but my will grows weak as I achieve nothing but exhaustion.

And the battle rages on ....

That was brilliant and beautiful. You're a great writer.

Am loving your blog. Great design and a great mind. =] Will be coming back.

Thoughtfully shared by: Elle at January 23, 2003 07:36 PM

God, how I know how this feels. Whirlpools of chaos, mood and emotion, are my specialty. The difficult thing is to learn to trust their inner logic. Perhaps the fasted way out of a whirlpool is through its middle. Fighting it only leads to exhaustion, which leads to panic, which leads to drowning. Let go, be pulled in by it and then come out at the bottom of it. Easier said than done I know. I know this feeling though.

Thoughtfully shared by: thatmark at January 23, 2003 07:42 PM

excellent Leigh! You're always so good at putting what you're feeling into words. I sure hope that whirlpool sets you free real soon.
((((((hugs))))))

Thoughtfully shared by: Debbie at January 23, 2003 08:02 PM

You are totally unaffected by the inadequacies of the English language. Thank you for stopping by today, Leigh. And thanks for adding me to your blogroll. :)

Thoughtfully shared by: Keith at January 23, 2003 09:53 PM

you express so clearly, even tho i know you feel like you are not able to make sesne of this..you express it well and many who have been there can understand...

hugs my dear friend

be gentle with you

love you
me

Thoughtfully shared by: your other fav poet at January 23, 2003 10:37 PM

i am always amazed ay how the darkness, the dispairing moments of labored living, call forth the most beautiful of words...

thank you, and heal.

Thoughtfully shared by: Theo at January 24, 2003 12:54 PM

The battle still rages Sis, but never forget that when you run out of steam, HE carries you through! Remember the FOOTPRINTS! You brought me a plaque with the "Footprints" story on it, from your honeymoon, remember?? How many times I've looked at that, when it was all I had to hold on to. Now my daughter has it hanging in her apartment, and she gets strength and hope from it. So let go, and let God. He will bring you through this, and out of it, to a brighter world, happier thoughts, lots of new possibilities. You know I speak from experience! When you've hit rock bottom, there's no place to go except UP. One hour at a time, one step at a time, one day at a time, and then.......the battle becomes so much less intense! Hang in Sis, and hang on! I speak from life experience, and I'm still here, stronger and happier than perhaps any other time in my life. I came close to death on Jan. 5th, and am now taking the time to realize how close I was to it, and how God saved my life. Whether we be in physical harm, mental harm, emotional harm, spiritual harm, or "all of the above", YOU WILL COME THROUGH IN VICTORY, stronger and wiser!!!!

Thoughtfully shared by: Kelly at January 27, 2003 08:42 PM