Okay, so I'm not as strong as I thought. Or as I once was, anyway. I finally listened to what my body has been screaming at me for a while now, and enjoyed the splendor of my doctor's office today. *smirk* Blood pressure high; stress level way up; ulcer active. Oh joy. So ... I have now officially joined the ranks of the artificially happy (otherwise known as Paxil). From what I hear, it works wonders. I guess we'll see. For now, I just feel weak.

She also says I need to talk to someone. lol Ummm ... okay. So that's why I'm here spilling my guts ... I'm talking to someone ... anyone ... no one. Just spilling. And feeling like a whiner.

Let's hope it helps.

oh my, i've been quoting shelley so much. she says she wishes to be less smart. "dumb and happy would be nice"

one of the most wonderful people i've ever met - the mother of a very dear friend of mine - says she doesn't know one single person who is interesting and beautiful and at the same time doesn't drink too much or take pills and stuff, lol. I'd have to agree with her on that.

i guess it's the price of being special, sweetheart =) kinda... solitary.

i'm here for you, though. (taking my own pills, lol).

yours
monica

Thoughtfully shared by: monica at December 18, 2002 11:29 PM

Oh Leigh *tears* I wish I could be there to give you a GREAT big HUG! Spill honey, spill. We all fall sometimes,my friend, but with lots of TLC we do get back up again. Pour your rain down upon me, my friend. You are NOT a whiner. Think of me as your lifeline...I want to help. I truly do.
Remember...it's okay to use that four letter word-- HELP!
I will ALWAYS be here for you. I will NOT let you go through this alone...got it?!!!

Love you!

Thoughtfully shared by: Debbie Hunt at December 19, 2002 05:44 PM

it is not weakness to seek help dear one... it takes strength to admit you need help:)

be gentle with you, im here as well hon:))

Thoughtfully shared by: min at December 21, 2002 05:42 AM